I came accross your web site by mistake and was surprised at how much the content suited what I am going through right now. I have believe in God since I was quite young but have come to a point in my life where so many things have gone wrong that (disastrous actually) that I have a hard time not resenting God and in fact have become quite bitter. About 2 years ago I when things in my life started becoming more than I could handle I became mad and then very bitter toward God. My bitterness started to consume me. I think I recognise what your web site is all about and I only hope that you find peace.

For me, I still wrestle with Gods intentions and how he does things but I am starting to realize that all it is doing is ruining my life with resentment. If I could, I would go back to not knowing anything about God, but unfortunately I know too much. I am only too aware that God does exist.

I have found peace and I am not looking for anything. I know what I am doing. I am not bitter. I know that it is critical, environmentally, for people to realize that there is no god in charge of things -- we are it. I hope that you recover fully from the disastrous happenings in your life. When you are strong enough to shed your alleged god then you will know that you have fully recovered from your troubles.

Darwin Bedford
www.atheists.net