I came upon your site by accident and was sad to see your dis-beliefs in God. I too have wondered sometimes about God really exsisting and have been quick to blame him when things go wrong. However, the older I get, the stronger my faith becomes. He helps me through the tough times and rejoices with me in the good times. He has been my hope, my faith and my strength during a terrible time in my life; a time when most people just couldn't go on anymore. Just when I think things can't get worst, they do but, I have comfort in knowing no matter what happens in this life, I will live with him forever in heaven. What a comfort!